Therapist after therapist, I can seem to speak about my anxiety.

I remember about one year ago I was seeing my first therapist. It was about 2 months until i ghosted her. It was a weird feeling but I only experienced more anxiety when it came time to talk about it.

Not my mom, my sister, my dad, my best friend, my boyfriend, nobody was able to reveal the reason why I was so closed off. 

A few weeks ago I noticed how concerned my mom was that I wasn’t able to talk to my own mom about what’s going through my mind. That’s where I first started. Little steps of telling her why it was so hard and how I need support in times like these, not frustration.

Seeing how understanding my mom was helped me understand how my peers are only here to support me and guide me in difficult time. I started to talk to my sister, then started moved to my boyfriend. Slowly, I have been able to move with ease and speak my peace without breaking down.

As much as I still struggle with starting conversations regarding my anxiety, once i have let it out I feel much better. I feel a sense of control and power over the fact that Im doing something that for so long seemed like my biggest challenge in life.

Thankfully, with the guidance and patience of my peers, I have been able to do so and relieve my anxiety by talking it out with my biggest supporters.