I always hit the same mental roadblock.

I hold back. I don't want to say the thing. I recently completed the Jordan Peterson "Future/Past Authoring" online program - which I found helpful in setting my direction and aim. In one part you write down people you admire and the traits that led to your admiration. I didn't write:

• Fits in with exactly what you are suppose to be.

• Doesn't stand out.

• Doesn't say what they think.

• Follows the crowd

But I always seem to fall into the trap of wanting to be me but fearing what the reaction will be, knowing in my heart of hearts my intentions are good - also, most people don't care!

The interesting, dynamic and exciting art and creativity are found at the edges - the dangerous edges of the scene. Not in the average middle.

Average is safe - safe and fucking boring and if I feel I am hiding in average then I already know what my writing will be....BORING!!!

It's time to leave all I have out on the field.