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Elise Liu

3y ago

poet, storyteller, pragmatist, technologist, internet safety nerd. she/her. formerly product @Clubhouse, @Facebook, @HumanInterest. fellow at @integrity_inst. hopeful

Ship30for30, yet another unsuccessful attempt to beat my cycle of perfectionism & procrastination
Elise Liu

A few weeks ago, I paid $500 for a cohort-based commitment mechanism (and some classes) on how to write 300 words a day, every day, for a month, from a rather gimmicky program I found on the internet. How did this highly-skeptical, occasionally-published, prizewinning Harvard graduate come to that decision?

In a word: because while I can write, I don't write.

The large language model included in my Pro account on Typeshare says that my atomic essay on procrastination should suggest that I should:

1. Set realistic standards and understand that perfection is not attainable

2. Break tasks into smaller steps to make them more manageable

3. Prioritize progress over perfection

4. Practice self-compassion and embrace imperfections

So my home is full of affirmations, my Tumblr of half-complete poems, and I bless my imperfect work daily. Still, I have never managed to beat my own monsters here, falling off my #100endings commitment well before it was done, and never starting them in the first place.

I feel a bit about this problem what some people must feel about the weight loss guidance "Just eat less." In case: here are some more strategies I've tried:

  1. Eliminate distractions through boredom

  2. Set up an ideal distraction-free (snack-free) work space

  3. Shared and visible accountability with friends

  4. Bullet journals and apps with colorful rewards for success

  5. Performance-enhancing nootropics

So why not take another page from the weight loss industry?

  1. Pay for commitment mechanisms

Note: I have never won a DietBet.

Anyway, in the next 30 days I'll be writing micro-essays on some things that I'm noodling about right now. In the spirit of authenticity and transparency and embracing imperfections, I don't quite know what they are, but I do know some of the outlines I've been avoiding completing for months (or years) now are on such topics as:

  • When ambition is good

  • Why your CEO is wrong

  • The opposite of meta and the nature of irreducible problems

  • What HS debate taught me about corporations

  • How to stay epistemically humble

  • Queerness as culture

  • All pain is psychosomatic

  • Don't drink oat milk

    Other than the last one, they are incomplete and their headline titles are probably bad. Follow me for more hot takes on some cold bevs!

#ship30for30